Sunday, October 24, 2010

You May Call Me THE LUCKIEST

I take my life for granted. I realized today how truly fortunate I am. I could not be any luckier.

I, like most people, struggle believing that people really love me, and care about me. I got this tumor and all I could think of was the negative... How I had to leave my friends, and how I had to drop out of school.... How I had to give up so much.... I was scared. I was angry. I was upset. I was frustrated.

My daddy told me I could use this to be angry at God and pull away, or lean on him and get close to Him. I chose to lean on him. What's the point of being angry?! I have SO many blessings.

STARTING with my good friend Jesse Wride. He reminded me of all the good things I have in my life. And, he's honestly, one of the best things in my life. And by things, I mean people. Jesse has this ability to make me feel important and special. He's always there for me, no matter what. Jesse is one of the most remarkable people I know. He inspires me every day. I hope to be half the friend he is one of these days. I could not be luckier. Jesse is unique. He has the ability to be honest, and real with you in tough situations, but without hurting you. He really cares a lot about people, especially his friends. I have witnessed first hand what he's willing to do for his friends. He's one of the most selfless people I know, really. He has taught me so much about what a good friend is. He's someone I know I will always be able to trust, rely on, and depend on for the rest of my life. And that in itself makes this life worth it.

He reminded me that I didn't need this tumor for people to care about me... To me, it felt like it wouldn't make a difference... I tend to be quite insecure. I need to work on that. Then I looked at my blog... And my facebook.... And this is what I saw:



Just shows how strong you are. You are incredible. I love you Jenna Baker!! i'm praying for you babe. "I loved you too much to just be your friend-So God let me be your sister." love you jeny. Love ya! I LOVE YOU YA you're in my prayers j baby!! "it's the character that's the strongest that God gives the most challenges to. Now you can take that as a compliment." LOVE YOU! all i can say is just don't ever give... up, ever. Praying for you Jenna. We'll keep you in our prayers and PLEASE call if you need anything! Jenna! I'm sorry, you've had so much to face. But you're so strong and you inspire me! Is there anything I can do for you?? Any thing at all??? Please let me know!!! You're awesome!!! Remember that!!!! :) jenna, you're the best :) We're thinking about and praying for you right now. You are stronger than you know. And I think you know you are pretty strong. Just wanted to let you know that you are loved and I am here if you need ANYTHING. Jenny. I love you. Just thought you should know. i love you.Love you, Jenna. i love you too. every second of every day. Praying for you. Love you. i love you, jenna baker. i love you more than you know! Jenna Baker: I LOVE you, girl and will be here for you every single step of the way NO MATTER WHAT. Jenna Baker you are awesome! I love you! And I'm your biggest stalker! And things WILL get better, as cliche as that sounds. I love you girl. And I'm totally here for you no matter what!! :) :) Hey Jenna! I just wanted to let you know that our family is praying for you! Love ya!


Reading all these posts made me SMILE. I am loved. By so many of you, and by my Heavenly Father. God loves me. And he won't give me anything I can't handle. But he isn't making me do any of this alone. He has blessed me with YOU. And I have a humble and loving brother Jesus Christ who has suffered these exact pains, physically and emotionally, and he will not leave me comfortless. How blessed I am!!

I am lucky.
Lucky because I have a caring daddy who calls me daily.
Because my mother loves me even though I'm crazy and emotional.
I have hilarious and loving roommates.
Music blesses my life.
I have the BEST friends who put up with my mood swings.
Because my friends stick with me even when I treat them like crap.
Lucky because I have the restored church of jesus christ in my life.
I am lucky.


So thank you. Thank you to everyone who has taken even one minute to talk to me, ask me how I am doing, give me a hug, or an encouraging thought. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for the favors. Thank you for your time, your kind words, your warm hearts. Thank you for being amazing. And helping me feel so incredibly lucky. LUCKY.
You may call ME the luckiest. Cause I am. Despite the hard times. Despite how chance seems to play tricks with me. I wouldn't trade THIS life... for anything!